Late Night Reflecting

I was raised to have no confidence. I was raised being told that all of my interests were garbage, that I was going to be 300 pounds because I was a little chubby at age 11, and that I was selfish if I didn't give everyone 100% of what they wanted from me. I found some confidence when I started doing comics and being a street artist, but lacked to tools to manage it when it started to turn into TV interest and media attention. The confidence I had built up got shattered when my TV deal didn't happen, but I was able to hide in plain sight by doing YouTube. That went crazy as you know, but then right before the pandemic the people I had put all of my trust in got together to bail on me when I was going through some horrific family issues. That knocked me down and I still don't think I've gotten back up. But now I feel like I'm finally getting up and dusting myself off. If I know anything it's that these things go in cycles and when I get back on top, everyone who counted me out has a big surprise coming.